Sometimes all I can think about is how badly I wish things could be back to the way they used to be. Just far back enough to have everyone from our family back here on earth. That would be great if time would simply reverse and I could be with my whole family again. But that is an unrealistic hope for this life. As I have mentioned before: I am grateful that time keeps moving forward. While I still have those days where I miss the “happier" parts of my life that included having my whole family together, I know that God has designed things for everyone to help us reach our highest potential. For some, reaching their highest potential includes having their whole family on earth, together, throughout their mortal life. For others, it is a different story. But the motives behind such events is the same: to help us become more like Christ and be the best we are capable of being.
Thinking back on what I have learned over the years, and who I have become today, I honestly don’t know who I would be if I didn’t experience the joys a pains I have felt so far. I seriously can’t comprehend it. At times, it can be extremely difficult to try and align my will with God’s, but I just need to have the faith that He is all-knowing and has marvelous things in store for me to do. I wonder why it is so hard, though. Why did God create us to be able to think for ourselves? Why give us agency? Especially when we, at times, think that we know better than God? Why create rebellious children who develop their own logic––logic that carries a high chance of denying Him? I believe that God created us this way in order to let us discover the truths of the Gospel for ourselves and become truly converted to Him. Understanding this reasoning, and then thinking about the amount of faith God has in us is astounding. So the least we can do is have faith in Him.
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