Russian Test

I’ve said this so many times before, but I am saying it again: Russian is hard. It is hard for me to stay focused on learning the language when I don’t have a mission I need to learn it for or that I have a specific purpose in mind for why I am wanting to learn it.

My sister Matisse was the one who encouraged me to take Russian. I signed up to have one of her favorite professors (really all of the Russian faculty are her favorite). Russian 101 was simple and fun. It was an interesting intro into Russian. But Russian 102 now is when the honeymoon is over. Things are beginning to get serious and now is the time when you decide if you want to continue doing it or not. I honestly don’t know if I want to, though.

Tomorrow is my Russian oral test. I can’t speak that well so I am really nervous. For some reason, when it comes to learning Russian, my mind blanks on everything. When I was learning Spanish and French, I could remember things easily. It felt so much simpler speaking both of those languages too. I just hope that as I practice speaking Russian more, things will come more easily. I hope I will be able to remember what case endings are needed in specific situations and just that I can simply understand what the person is saying. I feel like I am going at a snails’ pace. Not even a turtle that when it goes slow and steady it wins the race, but rather a snail. Who knows when it will win the race––if it ever does.