Language

Russian is hard. The majority of the time I spend doing my Russian homework I just want to give up and cry. Taking a five credit language class is definitely challenging. I don’t know what I have gotten myself into. Honestly, the big deciding factor that made me choose to do Russian was the fact Matisse would be able to help me. Besides that, and the fact that I would be able to get the expensive textbook for free from my teacher, I didn’t really know if I wanted to do Russian. But, here I am.

In some ways I am grateful that I have been able to take Russian. It has helped me to work harder than I would think to usually do. It has pushed me to do, and to be better. I just hope that I will be able to grow from this learning experience.

Tonight I took an online test for my Russian midterm, and after my first try, out of two, I just cried. I couldn’t stand the fact that I did so poorly on my first try. That’s my problem, really. In any class that I have a hard time in, I always blame myself. I always think I am the one coming up short. My family has to keep telling me that my effort counts and that there is more than just a superficial grade. I just really need to learn to get over the hump of thinking I’m not good enough.

We’ll just have to see what happens in the future…